Paris Hilton is usually opening up about her past like never before.
The 37-year-old hotel heiress is usually one of the subjects of Bert Marcus’ fresh documentary, The American Meme, which sheds a light on social media stars like Hilton, Josh “The Fat Jew” Ostrovsky in addition to Brittany Furlan, among others.
Inside the film, Hilton recounts her rise to fame, including The Simple Life, her reality show with Nicole Richie, in addition to her sex tape with former boyfriend Rick Salomon, which was leaked in 2004.
“the idea was like being raped,” Hilton says of the sex tape’s aftermath within the documentary, according to USA Today. “the idea felt like I’d lost part of my soul in addition to been talked about in such cruel in addition to mean ways. I literally wanted to die at some points. I was like, ‘I just don’t want to live,’ because I thought everything was taken away coming from me. I didn’t want to be known as in which.”
In a panel after the screening, the former reality star said she wanted to participate in Marcus’ documentary in order to show audiences a fresh side of herself.
“I felt like the entire world was introduced to me through The Simple Life,” she shared. “There was no reality television back then, so the idea was very fresh. There was no social media, so I basically created This specific character in which was basically what I thought the audience wanted, like, ‘Oh, she’s rich, so she needs to be a spoiled airhead’ — basically what the producers told me to do.”
“When Bert told me about This specific film, he basically said, ‘Paris, you’re the O.G. of all This specific,'” she explained. “I actually trusted him in addition to was very vulnerable about things I had never spoken about before in addition to basically just wanted to show the real me, because I don’t think I ever have before.”
Hilton is usually at This specific point engaged to actor Chris Zylka, who she called “the man of my dreams who I know will never hurt me or betray me.”
“I’m very excited for the next phase of my life in addition to to start a family in addition to find true happiness,” she expressed. “Because, yes, This specific is usually so much fun. I love what I’m doing — the idea’s great being in Ibiza every summer DJing until eight within the morning — although sometimes the idea gets a little tiring.”
“I’m still going to continue being the girl boss I am, although I’m also going to be a mom, in addition to I can’t wait for in which day,” she added.
Hilton in addition to Zylka gushed about their upcoming wedding while speaking with ET last month. Watch below.