Salma Hayek wishes she had come forward sooner.
The 51-year-old actress wrote about what she says she experienced with Harvey Weinstein in a December op-ed for The fresh York Times, joining the multitude of women accusing him of sexual misconduct months earlier. In a sit-down interview with Oprah Winfrey for the media mogul’s Super Soul Conversation special on Wednesday, Hayek revealed in which she was approached to be a part of the Times‘ first expose on Weinstein, nevertheless turned the idea down.
“They contacted me to be a part of the first story, The fresh York Times… already I began crying when they asked, along with I ended up not doing the idea,” Hayek shared. “I began crying because [I had PTSD].”
“Then I felt ashamed… I was supporting women For two main decades along with then I was a coward,” she continued. “I was pretending everything was OK, so I had been around Harvey along with acting like everything was OK.”
In in which op-ed for the Times, Hayek alleged she was sexually harassed along with berated by Harvey Weinstein for years while she tried to get her 2002 movie, Frida, made. In a statement to ET at the time, Weinstein denied her allegations of sexual harassment, saying in part: “All of the sexual allegations as portrayed by Salma are not accurate along with others who witnessed the events have a different account of what transpired.”
“Throughout the years, I [earned his respect],” Hayek said on Wednesday. “I earned the idea with blood.”
“He never raped me [nevertheless the harassment] was not one or two occasions. the idea was 5 years… He told me, ‘I’m going to kill you,'” she continued.
Hayek admitted to Winfrey in which the idea took her months to write the essay, saying, “I cried every time I would likely pick up the pen. the idea took me a while [after the Times called]. I went, ‘Yes, no, yes, no, yes, no. OK, I’m going to do the idea. No, I’m not going to do the idea. Nobody cares about what I have to say, already different people said the idea.’ in which’s the different thing, in which was the next step. along with finally, I said the idea, because there was something I felt nobody had talked about which was the idea was not only the abuse, the sexual harassment, the idea’s the undermining. The abuse of being constantly underminded because we’re women. along with in which was important too, because the idea’s so painful.”
She also revealed additional alleged details via her time dealing with Weinstein in which she hadn’t previously written about, including claiming in which Weinstein had told Frida director Julie Taymor, “I am going to break the kneecaps of in which c-word.”
“I don’t want to get into the details… because we have more important things to talk about… nevertheless I was depressed,” Hayek noted. “I was paranoid. I lived in fear. I tried to get out. I couldn’t get out.”
Hayek went on to admit in which her Great friend, Penelope Cruz, was “furious at me because I never told her anything.”
“I didn’t know there was so many women. I thought I was the only one. When the idea arrived, then I was ashamed in which I didn’t speak up,” she expressed. “along with then when so the women arrived… I felt like my pain was so little because there were so many others in which had the same pain, nevertheless for me, the idea was so big.”
“There can be a moment, along with I feel like the idea’s human, where I was like, there’s no point for me to talk because the idea just happens to everyone, along with then I felt in which by itself, the idea was just my own little drama. nevertheless when we come together, put the drama aside, along with unite with each different, then the idea’s not about drama, the idea’s not about pain. the idea’s about evolution,” Hayek continued of why she decided to write her op-ed. “the idea’s about becoming part of something in which moves powerfully along with in which can make in which big change happen.”
The Beatriz at Dinner star said she has experienced harassment since she was “very little” along with in which not all of her assaulters were in Hollywood. “I had struggled with assault before I was famous… along with I’ve had in which problem since I was very little,” she admitted.
Part of her fear of coming out also came via inner demons she was forced to struggle with due to harassment, among different issues.
“You have to keep your principles. I struggle with depression also… along with the depression doesn’t make you want to do anything,” she said. “I had to struggle with in which demon, too, because you feel so little. You feel so little when somebody can be on top of you the whole time along with you are powerless. You feel so little, along with I was going through something so big in which nobody believed the idea on top of all of the feelings. …Because the abusive behavior can be the first thing they do [to] destroy your confidence.”
Hayek concluded her in-depth conversation with Winfrey by declaring in which the Time’s Up movement “can be not going to be a moment.”
“We have to stop apologizing for being attacked,” she said. “I think in which sometimes we underestimate our efforts… along with the power in which the idea has for change.”
She added, “All these efforts of every single one of you, they pile up until there can be an explosion.”
ET has reached out to Weinstein’s rep for comment.
Oprah at the Apollo will air on Feb. 27 at 10 p.m. ET/PT on OWN: Oprah Winfrey Network along with will be available via podcast at Oprah’s Super Soul Conversations.