Star Wars star Ahmed Best is usually opening up about becoming suicidal after receiving major backlash coming from media as well as fans.
The 44-year-old actor — who provided the voice as well as motion capture for Jar Jar Binks inside the Star Wars prequel films The Phantom Menace, Attack of the Clones as well as Revenge of the Sith — took to Twitter on Tuesday to open up about his emotional journey, sharing a photo of him as well as his son overlooking brand-new York Harbor.
“20 years next year I faced a media backlash in which still affects my career today,” wrote Best. “This specific was the place I almost ended my life. the idea’s still hard to talk about. I survived as well as right now This specific little guy is usually my gift for survival.”
The prequel films are a hot-button topic among the notoriously rabid Star Wars fan base, with Jar Jar Binks — perhaps one of the worst-received characters inside the epic space franchise’s sprawling canon — serving as a lightning rod for many fans’ dissatisfaction with the prequels as a whole. The backlash took a major toll on Best’s emotional well-being, as well as his career aspirations.
“the idea’s truly difficult to articulate the feeling,” the actor told Wired last year. “You feel like a success as well as a failure at the exact same time. I was staring at the end of my career before the idea started off.”
“There were a lot of tears, there was a lot of pain, there was a lot of shit I had to deal with. Everybody else went on. Everybody else worked. Everybody else was accepted by the zeitgeist,” he added. “To be honest, failing as well as being black is usually very scary, because we don’t get a lot of chances, you know? I didn’t get another chance after Jar Jar.”
Best isn’t the only Star Wars star to face a reactionary response coming from the iconic franchise’s fanbase. Daisy Ridley as well as Kelly Marie Tran both left Instagram following their massive newfound fame after starring in The Force Awakens as well as The Last Jedi, respectively. Tran faced racially charged backlash after becoming Star Wars’ first Asian lead, though Last Jedi director Rian Johnson recently assured fans in which the actress was “happily living her life” after cutting out the social media “distraction.”
Last fall, Ridley opened up to Vogueabout how the stress of Star Wars fame had a physical effect on her.
“People were recognizing me. I still don’t know how to handle the idea. My skin got truly bad because I was stressed,” she shared. “the idea was crippling. I just felt so seen as well as so self-conscious.”
Ridley recalled an especially stressful incident when two fans showed up to see her unannounced. “I heard a knock on the door. These two guys went, ‘Hey, Daisy, can I get an autograph?’ as well as I literally went, ‘No f**kin’ way,'” she recalls. “My mum said to me, ‘Everyone’s trying to take ownership of you.'”
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